How long since I cried so badly?

Actually I'm glad that I finally cried out. Have been avoiding for so long and I feel relieved when it's finally released. I am quite surprised too that I can still cry until like that even after 1 and a half year. It was like only yesterday when things happened. The memories still as clear, I can still remember every single thing. Everyone keeps telling me, move on, you will find a better one. I know but it's hard to do it. I don't want to be like this forever too but it just fails even I have tried whatever I can. I avoided to have any contact with him, in the end miss him even more. Don't avoid, I will miss talking to him, seeing him. So what else can I do? Can anyone tell me?